Monday, August 06, 2012
Forgive me for re-posting an excerpt from someone else's blog, but this is the most convicting thing I have read today:
"I decided that I had had enough, so I began making a list for God of all the things in my life that sucked.
And I guess he was in a listening mood because I went on for a few miles without any sort of response. Typical, I thought to myself. Where are you? I’m exhausted. I’m worn out. I can’t believe you keep asking me to wait. Wait! For what?
Then another narrative began floating through my brain, a narrative that did not feel like my own creation, a dialogue inside of myself with someone or something entirely separate from me.
What if you remain a semi-mediocre writer for the rest of your life – would you still love me? the voice asked.
“That would be disappointing,” I muttered. “But, yeah, sure, I’d still love you.”
What if you never make as much money or have as much security as some of your friends – would you still love me?
“Yeah,” I mumbled. “If I’ve learned anything in the last three years, it’s that I can live an adventurous life without much money. So, sure, I’d still love you.”
What if you couldn’t write for a living any longer – would you still love me?
I was starting to understand where this was going.
“Yes,” I whispered. “Yes.”
What if you lost everything – would you still love me?"
The questions leading up to the last question may look different for you and me right now:
"What if you never land your dream job - would you still love me?
"What if you never get married - would you still love me?"
"What if you never have children - would you still love me?"
But I think the last question should cut straight to the heart of each one of us:
"What if you lost everything - would you still love me?"
I think, and I hope, and I pray, that like the apostle Peter, I would say, "Lord, to whom shall I go? You have the words of eternal life. I believe and know that you are the Holy One of God."
I also rest in knowing that it is God who is able to keep me from falling:
"To him who is able to keep you from falling and to present you before his glorious presence without fault and with great joy— to the only God our Savior be glory, majesty, power and authority, through Jesus Christ our Lord, before all ages, now and forevermore! Amen." Jude 24-25